SO LAST NITE

...let's not talk about it too much, but just a few words of advice

• DO NOT ever kiss a sailor.
• DO NOT ever talk about the oppressive system that keeps blacks down in a room filled with other races.
• DO NOT trust your friends to not leave you with strangers when two cute guys pass by.
• DO NOT judge your friends or chastise them about their behavior when you are in fact, just as fxckd up as them.

follow these rules, and u wont be like me. Worst of all, I have a shitload of work to do within the next four hrs before the superbowl comes on=/ 

hmmm...

i dislike negative nancys.

so KUMBAYA or however the hell you spell that shxt. 

follow my twitter @addydoll. OUT,

and reggie bush= life in summation. GOOD LUCK REGG.

Opera singing.

Yes, sums up my day.

you would think a lot of things if I told you I go to harvard, maybe I saved a baby whale, or disproved science, but nope not this genius. I spend my time shaking my ass and harmonizing NO AIR by Jordin/Chris with my roommate Ari. Hmm...so much for higher education.

oh & it gets better ! Tonite i'm going to make it rain on you hoes lol, but seriously its the name of this party at my school, and according to upperclassmen, we get stacks of bills to shower our friends with like strippers YAY & if you're twentyone which i am not, u get a free bottle of champagne lol, did i say i love this school??

so as for now, I am going to salvage the remainder of my day before I go get wasted before this party, I need a respectable job this summer so this is our little secret dolls, they can never know i made it rain on these hoes lol, so as for now bxtches, Grab a MxtherFxckn UMBRELLA!

Dilemna...

Three possible outcomes:

1. Go to the Renaissance Ball
2. Go all the way back to NYC for friends bday party
3. go to this huge weekend summit network event where i could meet amazing influential people

...ill update later with my decision.

ON FREE WILL vs. FATE

why is it that when something good happens to someone, we blame it on fate (divine intervention of some sort), yet when something goes wrong man is faulted because it was an act of free will. Mmm, seems convenient from a religious perspective but if it was vise versa, and I killed someone, I would be able to testify on the grounds of fate, at that point would I be crazy?

So special shouts to my best friends

1. Rima Bima est. 1991! out the womb baby=]
2. Regina 
3. Vernee
4. Mieka
5. Genesis

&& I cant forget my Harvard boos.

1. Ola- i would be screwed up without you
2. Syd- like a sister
3. Mari-soul mate
4. Oki-Partner in Crime
5. HyHy- wife
6. Ari- adorable
7. JujuBear- my boo.
8. James- ahh...the sweetest.

There are tons of more important people, but remember this blog is about me, and if someone is wondering abt their shoutout, is coming real soon love! haha.

...interested in deep thought provoking and insightful music?

Then thats too damn badd!!  wacka flocka this!

Later DOLLS.

what's love got to do with...anything?

This may sound completely arrogant, but I would argue perceptive:
I KNOW PEOPLE TOO WELL
& Then occasionally there comes those who are in fact unpredictable, exciting, complex and multi-dimensional. These are the people that I often tend to enjoy.




The worst part about love:

• you become an irrational mess, your whole life controlled by your infected heart, your mind obsolete, in many ways you are crippled.
• reason no longer works. You try, but all you see is yellow (the GAYEST --i mean happy) color manifesting in roses and stupid ass tulips everywhere you look!
• finally, all good things have stipulations. Love is ephemeral ...it falters but unfortunately it's unconditional. You cant help but remember why you fell in love even if the bad times were really bad. You dwell on memories of yesterday and it's the hardest thing to let go but sometimes and most times you have to, unless it will break you.

Truthfully:

I have been in love, and I know it's love and not lust. I know because you can let go of lust and easily replace it, but love man, that shit is relentless. It makes you do stupid things, think stupidly and you just seem to never let it go. But my advice, is to never let it control you. Women tend to be a lot a more in tune with their emotions and so they know what is good and what is not follow it cuz its all u have. & know that its okay to love someone and its ok if its hard to let go, but there is a reason why people are not in your lives anymore.

But then, there are those exceptions. The people who make their way back into your lives, but I serious warn you not to dwell on that. These are rare really rare. & in order to move forward you have to open yourself up to the possibilities. At the end of the day dolls, you're much stronger than you think. Everything is a lesson and please appreciate it. Cuz sometimes you have to see how badd things can get b4 can truly appreciate all that you have.

Hmm...i may change the tone of this blog, its kind of sappy and super personal but abstract all in one. I want to talk about less sap and more substance! ...but def sap too lol,

LATER DOLLS!

dedicated to Ari. My biggest fan lol

maybe...

maybe i should stop being so presumptuous, there's no guarantees in nature.
Even the most definite seasons falter.
I thought I had it all figure out life and still with these eighteenyears under my belt, I am learning everyday. I know what I want, what I dont want, what I wish to attain. But, truthfully nothing is set in stone.

candid, i wish to truly be. I get so caught up in the emotions of others, that i forget and foreit my own.
I study people like one studies the most complex book, I wish to discard of the excess baggage, but its hard sometimes you know...to just act like people who were somewhat important in your life dont exist.  


in order to move forward i seriously must acknowledge the past, that shit weighs you down like you wouldnt believe. bottom line I MUST "man up"

...maybe