I WANT TO WRITE MUSIC AGAIN

I always dreamed of making songs that touch people.

On another note, I just declared my concentration today- the department people were friendly.

Bitter...because I saw two GINORMOUS dogs in front of the dhall. They were completely docile but I do not have a good history with doggies.


Happy...because when this week ends I will 1) see HARRY P. 2) eat some good food 3) go home for tgiving.

Good Night. 
A.

I'm Back after a long Hiatus !

A LOT has transpired since my last update.

1. I had an amazing summer in NYC working at this internship in the BX as an instructor and administrative intern.

2. I was able to do a lot of self reflection, unfortunately I felt so exhausted from the long summer & it was difficult for me to rebound when school began in September.

Now, I am a sophomore -- def not your most exciting year in college. So far it's been filled with a number of ups and downs. Academically, interesting to say the least. I was definitely battling with concentration decisions and I finally decided on sociology which is cool but I do wish that my school had better options for concentrations.

Personally, I have made significant strides. I am quickly coming into my own and understanding myself and how I operate. Things I used to make excuses for now make sense to me. For example, some people may mistake me for being self-absorbed because I'm terribly awful with communication ( in terms of everything outside of face to face interaction), I have deduced that is not the case. I am just very self conscious and I am often trying to make myself better or focus on things that I should be doing before burdening others with the details of my life. I like to straighten things out with myself first; perhaps because I like to have my ish together at all times TYPE A PERSONALITY. The only difficulty comes with my lack of organization, it affects me and it works hand in hand with super short attention span. I guess I'm rambling but the basics are that I am super self aware and I can tell you my problems before you even have the chance to criticize me about it.

Unfortunately, I have not had time for leisure anything. Writing and reading for me is usually really therapeutic but it is hard for me to focus on anything when I have so much on my mind all the time. Sometimes I wish I could filter things out so I don't drive myself crazy all the time.

I have a lot of plans for this semester & the following one. I really want to do something important. Once I iron out the details, I'll be able to share it with the world.

Well, it's been great writing after so long. I have a lot of things on my mind ( much more than I wrote down) & the truth is I don't even know when I will have the time to do this consistently. I hope I can tho because I actually just feel soo much better. Alright, out.


Such is Life.
           A.

THE THINGS I dislike THE MOST ABOUT PEOPLE.

• People who try to be someone/something that they are not.
• People who cannot admit when they are wrong
• People who lie to make themselves look better at the expense of others.
• Inconsideration
• People who go MAD HARD to lie when it's unnecessary
• People who enjoy drama - the bad kind
• People who play victim
• Judgmental people.
• People who hurt small children/animals
• People who constantly disrespect others yet cannot find a reason as to why people do not like them
• Those who go to sleep comfortably after having hurt others so badly
• Obnoxious people who love to hear their voices...and no one elses
• Guys stuck in childhood
• People who do not brush their teeth, yet enjoy talking to your face.
• People who do not shower
• People who expect everything to be handed to them.
• People who have unreasonable expectations
• people who lack basic social graces ( eg. saying Hello and Goodbye)
• people who pretend to be ignorant
• People who try to put others on Front Street ( snitches).
• people who are ignorant and dont care for enlightenment.
• racists.
• people who do the strangest things yet dont understand why other people do the strangest things
• People who spend their time worrying about what other people are doing, thus forgetting that they have their own lives.

Basically, this life has got me thinking about all the things that really, really get on my nerves. I usually take the optimistic route and point out people's qualities, but from time to time, some things need to be addressed. I have witnessed all of these peeves in less than one semester and it bothers me tremendously. Hopefully, one day we can all learn from our flaws and become better individuals, friends, children and humans. My favorite part about living is LIVING... so yeah back to my life.

xoxo

Addy

THE WORST PART ABOUT BLOGS...

i often forget to write in them for prolonged periods of time.

I wish I had something legitimate to discuss, but I don't and I hope that if I keep typing, i will.

on a side note the trees outside look wonderful.


life was easier when I was five.

Sincerely,
Addy

SPRING; def fav season

so I am very excited about the way this year is going, setting goals...reaching them (which is awesome). I am on spring break and after this week my life will really suck ass! I have a shitload to do, i may cry so pray for me. This week I went around to different high schools  (particularly underprivileged and disadvantaged high schools in the Queens Area) encouraging students to apply to college and just a little bit about what Harvard is like...and it was such an amazing experience. While it would have been better if I could frikkin drive, it was def worth it. One of the counselors said one of the most touching things I have ever heard, she said "By you coming, you potentially changed the course of someone's life." I dont think I deserve a cookie of w.e what I did, I think its my responsibility to help people who dont realize their potential. I wish more people thought that way. But anyway, I kinda wanna go back to school ...I'm done with new york until MAY! 

Addy.