often times

we undermine the power of assumptions, but what's scarier is when we undermine our own.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am done making assumptions, I'm done with lingering to vapid words. I'm only going to believe in what is shown and not said. I guess I accept full responsibility for my faith in other people. Just because I say something and hold myself accountable to it, doesn't mean that everyone will hold themselves to that standard. I am neither writing to complain nor to bitch about the quality of my life, i love my life, I just hate when people try to take that love away from me. I appreciate the ground I am standing on, and though I know that taking chances sometimes means flying, but if I am going to risk crashing, I want it to be worth it. I've never had any regrets and so today, I wont start.

on a heavier note, this was one of my worse-er days=/ I was in excruciating pain from 9 am this morning until shortly after 3 ( awful in terms of productivity). But yea, I had enough fun last weekend so im totally fine with staying in and reflecting on me (it helps that i like my reflection) lol.

on a lighter note happy almost valentines day. I've always had an issue with this day. Things just never seemed to work out, *shrugs* It's not even a legitimate holiday lol. I'm not hating or anything and kudos to all you lovers, but hmmm...things have just never worked out for me on February the fourteenth.

In conclusion, I have learned today that I have some pretty amazing friends. The whole idea of college helping you find yourself is really not a myth. I think I may start being blatantly honest cus keeping my mouth shut has never taken me anywhere. I realized that I think to damn much, so I may need to spend a little bit more time out of my head. Oh and yeah, I hate institutions specifically catered to the degradation and exploitation of women. I hate the power struggle between men and women on college campuses (actually not a struggle in the sense that the man bears most of the power). By this I mean, I hate when I go to parties just to see all the boys lined up along the walls, the girls in the center waiting for a guy to pull them over onto the wall just so that the guy can let the girl do all the dancing while he texts some next bitch on his phone. Lol, I know very specific, but I've seen it before and admittedly was a victim, but I have changed since, and I am seriously not judging anyone, but I just want to address the uneven distribution of power.

As a side note, one of my really good friends pointed out something very interesting to me today. It has come to my attention that one of our fellow classmates looks like Jigsaw from the movie Saw. I know this is rude, but some girls must be called out on their ego issues especially when the the girl in question is no type of attractive. I would post her picture adjacent to Jigsaw for you all to draw the parallels, but thats even ruder and so therefore this blatantly honest thing has failed before it began.

Later Dolls,
addy